I don't have a parachute, and I am freakishly calm about it.
So I did a thing you guys. A crazy, what were you thinking type of thing. Most people would be freaking out and panicking. Some people called me brave and said that I was probably out of my mind. Regardless, I did it and there is no turning back.
I quit my job without a back up plan.
When I say back up plan I mean, another job or even idea of what I want to do. I don’t got it! I had no idea of what the next step is, I just knew that it was time for me to leave my current job. I wasn’t going to leave right away, so I knew I had time to get my “affairs” in order before my last day.
I don’t like to go into the reasons as to why I am leaving. There are several different factors that play into it. Quite a bit of it has to do with management styles and the other part is the loss of my boss. That type of loss truly does change a company. However, it only played a small roll in why I left. The things that happened after are what truly compounded into my soon hatred of the company that I once loved and was devoted to.
I’m not settling for just any old job. I may not have a degree, but I have more work experience than half the people my age. And it’s not just basic job experience, but management experience. I am being very careful on where I apply, looking the companies up on Glassdoor and reading through on their gender equality ratings.
I thought about actively pursuing just blogging full time during the holidays. It’s one of those things where I doubt my abilities though. Would I actually be able to provide valuable content that you as readers would like? Would teaming up with others help make this blog more successful or full? It is something I still like to think about, and if I can step up my game now, I would consider it.
It was my original goal to travel more this year. Well we are 2 months away from the end and I haven’t gone anywhere that I haven’t already been this year. One of the people I work with always brings up the point that we work 5 days out of the week, go home and watch TV. Why would you want to do that on your weekend too? And he’s right! There are so many different places in Arizona alone that I could be going to and exploring. So I want to find a job that allows me to do both make a check, but see the world.
To think I was trying to quit this. Now it is my planned source of income until I find a new job. Thankfully I make a semi decent amount for not doing much of anything. It is an income though, so I can at least pay my phone bill lol.
I have endless possibilities, I just have to seize them.
I know that in the end, it’s going to be okay. If there was ever a feeling that could describe what I felt as I hit send it would be overwhelming calm. I knew in a moment, that I needed to step out of where I was and do something new; that me doing this was the absolute right choice for me. Sure, I was panicked and worried, but as soon as I hit that button a blanket of relief came over me.
I had my sock, I was free.
Where do I go from here? I don’t know myself, but maybe you can help me decide.